Tuesday, July 3, 2007 @ 7:04 AM

FINALS :D

with a bad timing.super bad.
but whats done cannot be undone.
i know my mistakes for today alrdy so i'm not gonna repeat them for finals.
could have done like 3secs faster, losing to someone i have always been winning.
the feeling SUCKSSSSS TO THE MAXIMUMXZX.
i felt like shit after the swim, in fact i felt like shit the whole dayy.
nothing seems to be going my way.
morning, OMG bad news. BAD DAY.
went to the pool, so much trouble changing, running from places to places.
and then there's no proper place to rest in school, i wonder where the teacher died to.
went to the pool, lunched with G.
warm up, good timings for 25sprints.
but 100, i totally died after my turn, went to deep, couldnt break water properly.
i lost my stroke.dieeee was leading liting for the whole thing until last 5m she caught up, poooof !3secs faster than me.
what a joke.
wanted to cry after i saw my timing, heng i could control.everyone was like.
"you got into finals what ! be happy !"
yea,how to be happy if you're not performing at ALL ?
jiaolian consoled me, did feel better, after the whole thing, i plopped into the pool again and train.
tried to find my pacework, its getting there alrdy.amost there.
tmrw i will do better.
oh yeah,
i will not be going school till next monday.any notes or test results, tell me after my season say like on 11thjuly.
tell me all at once so that i can cry all at once and not on alternate days.
it sucks.
i think for this week and next,i really need to focus, i have lost my focus two weeks ago i forgot bout alot of things.
yes its time to get back to shape for season.school has no proper place for me to rest and focus so school is a bad place.
i hate school for today it really sucks.

YES,
G CAME IN THIRD FOR 800M FREE FOR A GIRLS TODAY.
GILLIAN LEE I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOUUUU :D thats why i rushed down to the pool today.
my love as your motivation,cool eh ? <33
tmrw will be 400 free for you.
i will be there for you and BRING HOME THE MEDAL YES?
i will be rooting for you.

twintwin!
dont be sooo upset yes ? there's 400m tmrw just give it your best shot and thanks for hearing me whine today. i will be there for you too. loveyouu.

shucks, two of my good friends swimming, so hard to be biased. heh. =)

now, i have to be mentally prepared for thursday's events.
nothing must go wrong.
nothing must.

all in all, today is a superrr disappointing day.
nothing came in, i saw nothing.

quote from yj " heart pain, but i still have to move one"

Tuesday, July 3, 2007 @ 7:04 AM

Tuesday, July 3, 2007 @ 7:04 AM