Tuesday, May 8, 2007 @ 7:37 AM

SOOOOOOOOOO.
past two days are majorly pissy days. i dont know why but maybe the weather.
and the people. and when i say people its doesnt mean my friends.
it meant THE IDIOTS. yeah, i would like to call them that.
or maybe its just me i just have to find issues with something.
but today was slightly better (SLIGHTLY) cos i met up with bestfriend for dinner.
got to understand some of her stuff and HEYY best.
dont ever give up yeah !its just the starting,everyone's adapting.so take time and dont stress yourself up ! :D and whats more, i'm here to die with you la hehee.
talk in the caf was also quite gross (accroding to nikki la) she thinks amelia and me are gross.
we're not, we're just being opened to the topic.
AND AMELIA. yours also not very big okay. shut up. lol :DD
the weather was still hot hot hot today as hot as someone. haha.
but i had uhmm fun during pe, on the phone, and with the mysterious 7023 !
these are the things that made my day slightly better its not that you guys are not good, its just the burning fire in me i dont know what but its there somewhere.
you guys are awesome la really.
and because i wasnt in school for most of the days last week, i missed out alot on gp and chinese.
GP :ESSAY AND PRESNTATION ON GLOBALISATION. (due on thursday)
CHINESE: ESSAY. (due tomorrow)
and the other notes that i still havent copied la.
i think i'm screwed and all the work plus pi contributed to my outburst yesterday.
I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMOREEEEE.
like for gp, we're into a new module and i missed out most of the information.
so i was kinda like lost during lesson, i felt stupid that day. i caught nothing and yeah la. TRIGGER POINT 1.
and then my teacher reminded me that i have a presentation due on thursday. TRIGGER POINT 2.
so the day went on, i was quite stressed la with stuff that i heard on sunday. its unpleasant and then so much work to do and catch up on.
PW made it worst.
i submitted my PI again to her and that was my 7th draft. SEVENTH DRAFT.
and then she went " this is not in PI format !redo!"
WAHLAOOOOO EHHHHH. i thought enough is enough la so my anger level flew to the highest level. classmates can testify to that.
i felt like slappng her man she gave me back my previous PIs so i thought it was redundant to keep them so i said you can throw them away.
or quote from bestfriend : " turn into a kingkong and chop slam her"
she didnt want to so she gave it back to me.
okay the next thing i did was bad but haiyah ! angry alrdy !
i tore the PIs. yeah. imagine that.
and actually i was at the verge of tears i'm really damn sick and tired of doing things over and over again when that person is never satisfied.
and i dont understand why SHE can do on mother teresa while i CANNOT.
and she have to bring in class initiated CIP whenn it was DR CHUA initiated CIP.
worst thing is she chose to do it on a CCA day.
whe we didnt want to do it she went like "its so hard to get your class to do anything"
HELLO. your class is like a DSA class and we have CCAs on wednesday.
and she promise things without us knowing LIKE WHEN DID WE AGREE TO IT HUH.
i mean there are like better CIPs that we can plan ourselves when we have time.
at least better than giving out stupid flyers. FREE LABOUR ISIT !
and that was TIRGGER POINT 4.
so i got home determined to get my PI right for the last time.
then my com has to find trouble with me, like i cant sign in MSN because of the firewall thing.
i off-ed the firewall thing, cannot sign in.
so i installed the new MSN and still cannot sign in. (trigger point5)
i resorted to ebuddy and btw, i'm still using it now at this moment.
ebuddy is like my best pal now. NOT.
and the worst of the worst thing happened to me.
that was the end of everything man EVERYTHING.
i couldnt find my latest PI draft in the com, i used all ways to search for it.
it was just not there.
i think i really turned into a kingkong man, !@#$%^&*()
i retyped everything reluctantly.and only finished at like 11plus at night.
and i forgot bout my GP template that was dued today but luckily she let me off because i had valid reason. PI. yeah.
and i finally submitted my PI today i bet she hasnt seen it yet but my mailbox is like flooded with DRCHUA's email. and i tell you I'M NOT READING IT.
i'll prolly get shit again and i refuse to see it lest i get more destroyed.
DELETE DELETE DELETE. roarrrr.
i dont know why, that burning fire is still somewhere in my body and i just cannot find ways to get rid of it.
perhaps one week MC is not enough, maybe i should like fall again heh.
perhaps i should just slit my wrist and die.
soooo sunday meeting was atrocious.
seriously what are the parents thinking man. MERGE WITH PA ?
WHYYYYYY and why does jiaolian have to leave us why why why.
i cant believe YOU actually said something so untrue about jiaolian when what YOUR daughter has today is all like HIS efforts. if you really think that jiaolian is lazy and cant be bothered, YOU can always bring your daughter back to COE. no point coming back to the squad okay. wahlao eh what a dog.
maybe its this issue that has caused all the anger and displeasure.
crap.
i need to shout out loud but i dont know where.ranting here is just not enough laa.
nobody gives me constructive comments.
i have to think and rethink my options and i'm quite sick of it already.
its only tuesday and i'm already in this state. watch me at the end of the week.
i think i will turn red like the devil in the hell hole.

and when i'm in highly irritable mood, please do not come and insult me any further.
you wont like it when i shoot at you.
ohyes, when i show concern,can you be nicer and not insult. #$!$%#^#&^

QUOTE FROM MELLIE AND RUTH : " i'm okay, it just hurts when i breathe"

Tuesday, May 8, 2007 @ 7:37 AM

Tuesday, May 8, 2007 @ 7:37 AM