Monday, March 26, 2007 @ 5:13 AM

today is bad bad and emo day. like literally it was.
my uniform wasnt in the right shape i dont know why
woke up and felt oily and fat.
folded my skit and i dont know why i just couldnt get it right.
alright shoes on, off to a long day in school.
something funny happened on the bus today.
we were at this particular stop think near bukit panjang.
this lady got on the bus she looked pregnant/plump.
primary school friend was sleeping and i nudged her whispered softly.
"EHEH LOOK AT THE LADY BESIDE ME. DO YOU THINK SHE'S PREGNANT?"
looks looks.
"AYE.i dont know leh she look plump or why not you try asking her."
obviously i did not ask la. how embarassing is it to ask a person?
what if she's not pregnant? i wanted to give up the seat.
BUT WHAT IF SHE'S NOT PREGNANT?!
in the end i just like sat down and i could sense that she kept looking at me.
that made me felt uneasy. in the end she got off at cjc's stop.
i hereby conclude that that woman is pregnant.
#^%$%(* ! i flet damn guilty okay. made her stand to long in the squeezy bus.
next time if i see someone who's uhmm.i dont know if i think she's pregnant, will not hestitate to give her my seat. felt so guilty after that.
wah then it started pouring heavily.
i dont know why its always monday mornings HEAVY RAIN.
cats and dogs and dogs and cats.
rained like animals. rawrrr.
and the best thing is whenever i dont have my umbrella with me, it rains.
whenever i bring it, not a single drop of rain will come down.
got off bus 142 outside school thank god there was priscilla (s16 classrep) she offered to share her umbrella with me.
i got semi wet. thank god if not for her,i would be totally wet and not semi wet.
assembled in the hall, and things started to go downhill.
really downhill. mrs lim kinda like chided the J1s againnotice the again
she always does that la and its annoying.
after that the best thing comes.
we got our timetable i really went wahbiang eh what kind of timetbale is this man?
let me break it down to yawl man
i end at 530 on mon, tue and thur ! WHAT THE PING PONG BALLS !
which means i cant go trng and i can only train twice a week.
then i must sacrifice my weekends for trainings also.
twice a week training is seriously not enough man. so now i have difficulty.
thought of changing to G's class but nonoo its only a one year solution and its not what i wanna take either.
her timtable rocks to the max i tell you.
so everyone was grumbling at the caf about their timetable(s) some rocked some really suck. like equally sucked like mine.
mine still suck more la huh.
felt down after all that
after that was gp banding/ this is the part that i totally broke down.
i'm the only loser from s16 that got dumped into some gp class with all the china scholars. CHINA SCHOLARS. they cant speak english for nuts.
and what its the lousy gp class. like why did i end up there?
i felt so unfair sat at one corner, i didnt want to talk to them.
i cant comprehend what they are saying because its either they say things in one chop one chop kind or they just mumbled their way through their speech.
i felt so miserable and the gp teacher came and talk to me and asked if i was alright.
she asked if i felt unfair cos i was dumped into that class. LIKE DUH OF COURSE I DO.
i started tearing as she continued and told me htis is only temporary if she sees that my lang is better than them i will be moved back to the normal stream.
LIKE DUH DUH DUH MY LANGUAGE IS OBVIOUSLY BETTER THAN THEM.
at least i speak fluently and not in one chop kind.
i want to appeal to the normal stream class.
and cos of the china scholars i have to go through the first intake topics again when the normal stream people are like moving on to the next module.
i just feel i dont deserve all this at all. not at all okay.
SUCKS LAAAAAA. cried in the caf wallowed in selfpity.
thanks for all the consoling kay people. esp benny dyan G lover tambu abel (:
but i think life still sucks.
the only lesson i enjoy now is lit and the teacher might shift our period up so that we will not end at 530 on three days.
me and mellie were planning and annoyed nikki. haha. we're gonna whine more to her tmrw. and plan the timtable, see where we can slot the periods in.
i'm keeping my fingers crossed for that. PLEASE. and i'm gonna talk to mr ng tmrw with benny. he saw my msg today and called me straightaway too bad i will only see him tmrw.
till the end of the day, i sitll feel unfair and miserableee. msging some people help abit. and talking bout it makes me emo and cryyy.
tmrw we have the opening season thingy. sports people taking TEAM SAJC pledge in front of the whole school. first time i'm doing this kinda thing. and i think its cool.
pe is last period tmrw. rocks. NOT.
hokay talked to james and compared bout school stuff.
YA LA YA LAA we both have work to do just that yours is homwwork and mine's tutorials.
i'll be recepttive to his advive go look at fomualas and examples.
hopefully some shit will go into my brain.
summation series just suck la.
and basically life sucks now.

okay end of whiny and emo entry.

Monday, March 26, 2007 @ 5:13 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007 @ 5:13 AM